white hair, white lies

>>first of all, narealize ko na ang dami ko palang typo...

>>second, dahil nawiwili ako magpost dito.. kaya, eto pa.

(expounding on ekai's last thought)

ang hirap na nga ng stage natin ngayon, plus the controversies pa! It's hard enough na nga getting started on something totally new, and unknown to most of us. Nakakapressure, kse chong totoo na to!! Dito na nakasalalay future mo and those depending on you. Pagnagkamali ka: KULONG! Sana nga meron nlng malaking elepante sa gitna ng room..

dati nung bata ako, excited ako tumanda.. para i can do and buy whatever i want! pero ngayon, seems like those are the only perks you get for being 20 or older. noon, i'd rather not go to school; i get to nap in the afternoons (mas madami, mas matagal--mas maganda!); jolibee lang masaya na tayo (pwede ring mcdo--ung iba nga tarzan lang!); tapos you can be as honest as you'd like and people'll just laugh and say "Ang cute-cute mo talaga!" Eh ngayon? Absent yourself at your own risk, either maka-miss ka ng lecture, quiz, or even a day's pay; limited sleeping hours mo, pano pa kung night shift; tapos ang hirap na masatisfy ang happiness (minsan nga napapaisip pa ako kung ano ibig sabihin nun); tapos try mo maging honest, ewan ko lang ('nough said).

its funny how children are frequently asked 'what they want to be when they grow up', giving the infamous doctor, lawyer, teacher, etc. as answers when they do not really know what those do. I bet, with hearts like theirs, they wouldn't want to grow up at all if they'd know what lies ahead.

feeling ko, most people feel this way at this stage. some just denies it and becomes corrupted; some ignores it and feels powerless against the corrupt; while some uses it to make change/s. pero dahil kahit papaano aware tayo, sana hindi tayo madala ng basta basta. honestly, dko lam kung kaya ko... pero nako! kung nahihirapan na ko sa ganito pano pa kaya kung lumala pa to!