paradoxically logical

EKAI: dr. Phil kaw ba yan?!?!

TINA: ang haba nman nun pinost mo, damang-dama mo un noh?! la tayo magagawa, ganyan talaga yan eh.. sabi nga, all is fair in love and war. don't worry kse sooner or later, you'll find your fair share.. and when that time comes, your heartbreaks would make it more sweet!


ok, from leakage to love... the two things eating us up inside out these days...

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"I yearn to be free of pain, but rush straight into it; I long for happiness, but foolishly crush it like an enemy."

--8th Indian Buddist Shantideva

Tama diba?? sometimes the way to reach happiness is to walk away from it. So ironic and contradicting pero it so does make sense. ewan ko sa inyo, pero sa 'kin OO! Not only does it apply to love, I believe it is a philosophy of life.

we want so bad to avoid problems and conflicts pero nun lumabas ung results ng boards at nalaman na may leakage.. ano nangyari?? Nagrally tayo. We stay away from confrontations, avoiding the argument.. then what?? We suffer from the weight anger, guilt, or doubt presses on us inside.

we crave to be happy… Who doesn’t? but are we?

IKAW? Happy ka ba ngayon? (cguro kung self-actualized kana..)

Cguro pdeng masaya ka nga ngayon (whatever your definition is of the term), at this point in time.. but still, don’t you feel something missing? Something you can’t even (or, luckily, could) identify? One way or another you chose to be there.. we chose to be where we are now… and the absentness that we are feeling may have been our own decision. It’s sad, but sometimes we have to give up something for the benefit of others or of something better—just as a death for a life.

we foolishly crush it like an enemy... Bakit nga ba?

Isa...
kse mabait tayo!hehe We do not think only of ourselves. We consider the effect of our actions on other people… on the people we love dearly. minsan pa nga, we are ready to sacrifice huge things for them (like course sa college, or a kidney). We do this even though alam natin na we are plunging into our own version of hell. Parang gutom na gutom ka na pero tumatakbo ka palayo sa mcdo.

At pangalawa…
kse tao tayo. Tao tayong buhay… that’s what we’re suppose to do, I guess… you may see it like we’re programmed to be doing that… or… as consequences of the choices we make. whichever, nakakagago dba… magulo talaga… hindi ko din alam kung ano tama. Wala naman cgurong may alam.

“We desire the truth and find in ourselves nothing but uncertainty. We seek happiness and find only misery and death.”

--Pascal

This is one of the mysteries of life cguro… reasonable contradictions.

However you see it, and how hard you try and steer away from it… you’d just find yourself in its mercy. Whatever actions you take to deny this would just cause you further delay in being where and having what your suppose to be having. cguro we should just stop wondering why, stop looking for happiness (metaphorically in our life), accept what life offers do what is right then maybe, one day, we would just unexpectedly stumble upon it.

just do as it says...