raket kung raket!

allstarbums: were about to be reunited with our college.. dahil kung magretake e tyak review na naman tayo sa skul! at libre yun! (libre nga ba?)

kamusta na nga pala kayong lahat?

anyways nashare ko na ito dati kay ekai at kay flor e.. about the website (at alam na nga pala ni tupe) that ive been contributing to. (tama ba yung grammar nun?!) malapit na sya irelease, next month na.. kapag narelease na magmembers din kayo ah! (promotion) i mean ako i dont get paid pero masarap naman gumawa kasi d website is about music. hehehe! tska its a nice hobby--pra sa mga rehabilitated addict jan!

eto pa isang raket: trip nyo bang gumawa ng pocketbook? ung manipis lang.. yung tipong "ang pagdadalamhati ni flor" hehehe! wla ako maisip na title! 100 pages, double spaced, in tagalog.. 5k ang talent fee.. wla lang! kung interested kayo paramdam lang kayo!

OCTOBER HELL MONTH!!!

haha you all might be wondering why i am saying this!!! well it only applies to my "will be state of living" this coming month!!! this is because my discipline, my will, my own direction, my responsibility, and me being as an adult will surely be tested. my dad and brother will be leaving the country on the 10th of october thus im the only one left here (well not totally alone coz my cousin ate bhen some of you guys know her) will still be with me in the house. thing is all of the responsibilities will now be imparted on to me. now i can't fail anything or anyone for their expectations on me especially my mom who is really stressed out because im alone here in the country with no one to put limits on me but myself.

before anything else i would like to say thank you to all the people who believes in me and supports me. i love you all guys hehehe....damn this is becoming mushy anyway thanks really as i've said many times before i hope i can repay it with something or anything in the future so that i can return the gratitude hehe...

haha...im gonna undergo laparoscopic cholecystectomy this coming thursday or friday. good thing is that im no longer gonna worry about any painful attacks during the night!!! now i am relieved of this...

anything else well im gonna be tested this coming month and i wish i could come out not unscathed but full of good insights and good results in whatever im doing right now!!!

expections

ANNA: Yap sobrang dibdiban yun... just ventilating negative feelings to prevent heart attack! Haha... Pero oki na ako...

LEANN: Shocking comment... but I hope that it would constantly remind you that you are a lucky person because a lot of people are concern with you, excluding the not so "constructive critism part." And learn how to prioritize... You are a lucky being because you have the resources that some people don't so use it wisely... Maybe these people are using these "matter of fact" language maybe because they have observed that there's a contradiction between your words and actions and perhaps they thought your wasting your opportunity... And try not to rationalize everytime people are pointing out something... Ayun lang naman... Give it your best oki? Kaya mo naman yan... That's your life, and you're big enough and our advices will be there but in the end, it would be up to you to do something... So good luck dude...

TUPE: Ayus ang constructive critism article but you need to compose your next article, at wag kang tamarin!!! Share your ideas, para madaming magandang arguement haha

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hay grabe... its been a while since i posted here... alam nyo naman, 6 days and 6 nights ako sa hospital para bantayan ang mom and sis ko... Post lap-chole and UTI ang cases nila and sa sobrang daming nagpapaconfine because of suspected case of dengue, umabot sa 60 ang waiting sa room so we have no choice but to combine them in one room. oki na rin yun because at least 1 room lng ang 2 babantayan hehe... pero grabe, nag-iba ang body clock ko... I slept 2 am in the morning and woke up every hour because of due meds etc.

At the afternoon of confinement, shocking news... I just weighed 100 lbs! Wha! I can't believe it... even the nurse saw it. Nakakatawa, sa sobrang stress at kakatulog till late afternoon, (tnx to maanne's advice) I lost that much, around 25-30 lbs! Haha

Ayun nga pero after the confinement e i gained ulit, kasi naman, ang daming food tapus dahil nasira ang diet regimen ko, I have no choice but eat kasi pinagagalitan na ko ng mom ko! Bwahaha...

Ayun, just got my PC back last saturday night because na-virus itong PC kaka-DL sa limewire! Haha... So need to have a new anti-spyware talaga.

On Expectations...

Flor and I had a discusion regarding expections... People and Situations

Its better not to expect...

or at least not to expect much to prevent getting disappointed...

That qoute got me and made me think a lot of things in my life... Siguro this is one of the things that's bugging me, maybe I expect too much, that's why I get disappointed that much... Ayun, maybe high expectations on people and the things that will happen next... kaya ayun, with a failure expectation goes my disappointments on those things... And this perhaps made me re-consider about my perception on people and situations...

This morning, Tupe and I had a debate regarding expectations... And because I just had a good conversation last night with Flor regarding this issue, e I also shared it to him... Haha... Sana lang nag-sink in kasi bigla na lang sinabi na: 'ge lalakad muna ako... Haha

Ayun nga, that's its oki if you're aiming for something, but aiming high in a realistic sense. Yung tipong SMART like ng NCP. You can give you're best shot but its better not to expect that you'll have all the desired results because life has imperfections and so, there maybe some deviations with what was expected. If there is, at least less disappoinment on your part... Look at the bright side, there's a reason for everything that's happening... Imperfections makes the world exciting and worth living for... If it wasn't for these, walang challenge and life, we could not have appreciated life better. If life is perfect, we can't determine right from wrong, there would be no recognition of happiness and suffering so ayun...

Not expecting is not comparable to not exerting effort or giving the 100%, its just that you will do something ackowledging that there may be deviations but still the aim is there, the will power is there to achieve a certain goal, its like possesing a PLAN B in everything... Doing the OPTIMUM capacity... 'di tulad sa "The Devil Wears Prada" that the designer is a perfectionist that sometimes, she tend to forget that people do have limitations...

Sabi nga ni Anne Hathaway: "For her, there's no PLAN B"

Ayun lng naman...

Anonymous said...

oi, kung yang pag-aaral mo ang inaatupag mo at di yang f#cking ka-ewanan, e di sana malapit ka na maging RN. ang dami mong kalokohan sa katawan pero heto ka't sariling mong priorities, di mo masimulan. shame on you. buti pa yang Descant gott, may first step na, ikaw? wala pa. you should be ashamed of yourself thinking like that and saying those words. it only depicts what kind of person you are. a piece of advice, mag aral ka at makapasa ng boards, then, maybe the wolrd could reconsider all the f#cking sh#t that comes out of your mouth. - a friend

anyway i know alot are concerned about me well thanks so much about that...i know what i should be doing and im already starting to do that or should i say im already doing it! im ashamed already a long time ago and you shouldn't put it right in front of my face!!!coz everytime i remember it, it just puts me down...im trying to get over the shame and guilt day by day!!!!!!!! i still got the right to say what's on my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!okay alright im kind of mad at this, its not put in a therapeutic way.........it makes me feel like shit all over again

NU 107.5 The "HOME" of new "rock" is a poser station!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehe you might be wondering why I'm saying this! I just can't help myself not telling this to people! Well here's the story. My friends, the band Descant Gott, are one of the finalists in this year's Red Horse Muziklaban band competition (2006). To make the story short they should have been the grand champion of the said battle of the bands. But you might be wondering how NU 107 is connected to this? Well they are the only "rock station" in the Philippines for god's sake but they definitely are the one responsible for "influencing" the judges' decision for the grand winner! My friend asked the judges what their band's low points are and guess what, the judges said that the band (Descant Gott) didn't have any real low points at all. The judges said that the reason why they didn't win was because NU 107 said that they can't let them win because the band's stuff/ music can't be played always/ anytime of the day because its either too loud or not that radio friendly. Well f#ck that, you are the only rock station who could support the rock music scene of the country especially the METAL (true metal) SCENE of the country and yet are the ones responsible for putting down a band that could represent the said scene. Well I don't really know the exact words but a message something like this was sent to the band, NU 107 to Descant Gott: more power to you guys!!! something like that. So what is the stupid station saying to the band?
They are f#cking posers (people at NU) well not all maybe but those behind what happened are stupid assholes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They betrayed the METAL SCENE of the country!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well guess what the Philippines is such a pop culture country where users thrive in the mainstream and take advantage of people!!!!!!!

paradoxically logical

EKAI: dr. Phil kaw ba yan?!?!

TINA: ang haba nman nun pinost mo, damang-dama mo un noh?! la tayo magagawa, ganyan talaga yan eh.. sabi nga, all is fair in love and war. don't worry kse sooner or later, you'll find your fair share.. and when that time comes, your heartbreaks would make it more sweet!


ok, from leakage to love... the two things eating us up inside out these days...

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"I yearn to be free of pain, but rush straight into it; I long for happiness, but foolishly crush it like an enemy."

--8th Indian Buddist Shantideva

Tama diba?? sometimes the way to reach happiness is to walk away from it. So ironic and contradicting pero it so does make sense. ewan ko sa inyo, pero sa 'kin OO! Not only does it apply to love, I believe it is a philosophy of life.

we want so bad to avoid problems and conflicts pero nun lumabas ung results ng boards at nalaman na may leakage.. ano nangyari?? Nagrally tayo. We stay away from confrontations, avoiding the argument.. then what?? We suffer from the weight anger, guilt, or doubt presses on us inside.

we crave to be happy… Who doesn’t? but are we?

IKAW? Happy ka ba ngayon? (cguro kung self-actualized kana..)

Cguro pdeng masaya ka nga ngayon (whatever your definition is of the term), at this point in time.. but still, don’t you feel something missing? Something you can’t even (or, luckily, could) identify? One way or another you chose to be there.. we chose to be where we are now… and the absentness that we are feeling may have been our own decision. It’s sad, but sometimes we have to give up something for the benefit of others or of something better—just as a death for a life.

we foolishly crush it like an enemy... Bakit nga ba?

Isa...
kse mabait tayo!hehe We do not think only of ourselves. We consider the effect of our actions on other people… on the people we love dearly. minsan pa nga, we are ready to sacrifice huge things for them (like course sa college, or a kidney). We do this even though alam natin na we are plunging into our own version of hell. Parang gutom na gutom ka na pero tumatakbo ka palayo sa mcdo.

At pangalawa…
kse tao tayo. Tao tayong buhay… that’s what we’re suppose to do, I guess… you may see it like we’re programmed to be doing that… or… as consequences of the choices we make. whichever, nakakagago dba… magulo talaga… hindi ko din alam kung ano tama. Wala naman cgurong may alam.

“We desire the truth and find in ourselves nothing but uncertainty. We seek happiness and find only misery and death.”

--Pascal

This is one of the mysteries of life cguro… reasonable contradictions.

However you see it, and how hard you try and steer away from it… you’d just find yourself in its mercy. Whatever actions you take to deny this would just cause you further delay in being where and having what your suppose to be having. cguro we should just stop wondering why, stop looking for happiness (metaphorically in our life), accept what life offers do what is right then maybe, one day, we would just unexpectedly stumble upon it.

just do as it says...

dead end signs

recieved a quote from emers last Sept 3. 2006... Wala lang, just want to share and reflect on it...

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"I like DEAD END signs...

I think they're kind...

They at least have the decency

to let you know you're going nowhere..."

- BUGS BUNNY

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Yap indeed true...
Better than what most people are doing...

Nakakainis ang umasa dahil madalas nakakasakit ito ng damdamin whether its friends or a commitment...

Nakakainis isipin na sometimes, those people you expected to be there for you, sila pa ang wala, out of sight... Wala man lamang notice kung bakit ganito, ganyan, parang bula nalang nawawala... Ewan... nakakafrustrate lang... Mabuti pa ang ibang tao, they unexpectedly show some concern na kamustahin ka for no reason... At least may nakausap ka kahit papano...

Sa commitment naman, Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, you shouldn't keep that person just because you're getting something from him/her in return... yun tipong, just keeping that person because of the benefits/gains your having like:

• there would be someone na manlilibre sayo,
• anytime would be there for you if you need someone na pwede kang samahan to do this and that,
• na gagawa ng things para sayo though you could do it etc...

Nakakainis ang ganun kasi its giving false hopes sa taong umaaasa na mamahalin in return kahit wala naman talagang feelings na speacial... Sana sabihin na lang na ayaw mo sakanya, that you're not feeling the same as he do, na hangang friends lang etc...

Pero kahit friends lang, ang pangit pa din minsan dahil that person will still hope that he could gain the love of his beloved, susuyuin ulit and the other party may send wrong signals, wrong impression that empowers false hopes to that person...

Mas maganda nga na sinasabi ng prangkahan... At kahit masakit sa una dahil diretchan, at least hindi ka naman nag-aantay lang sa wala. At least hindi ka nagmumukhang tanga. Sometimes kasi, the problem is that,

we have the dilemma to tell the truth na ayaw na natin sa isang tao

or in case of those people with relationship - that you gave up na because of this and that reasons etc. I think kasi some people are afraid to break the heart of the person they "love" kasi they can see the happiness of the significant other. Pero isn't it selfish that you're keeping the person kahit ayaw mo na... Isn't it more unfair for the person because you're concealing the truth from her... Its cheating her twice... Masakit malaman in the end na matagal na palang ayaw sayo ng isang tao, hindi man lamang niya sinasabi sayo... Masakit yun grabe...

Yung sa huli, isusupalpal sa mukha mo na matagal na palang "the feeling is gone" or matagal na siyang nakapag-decide na tapusin na ang relationship dahil "mahihirapan siya, nasasakay etc." pero pilit parinniyang itinatago kasi ayaw ka niyang masaktan or sasabihin sayo na "kasi masaya ka kaya i decided to delay the confrontation."

What kind of reason is this? napaka-selfish...

Masakit isipin na in the most unexpected time ka pa nila iiwan sa ere ng walang warning... Para kang ibon na tinanggalan ng pakpak at hindi makalipad - ito marahil ang kahalintulad ng isang taong iniwan ng biglaan... Hindi man lamang nakipag-usap ng matino, isasambulat na lang sayo na ayaw ko na kasi ganyan, ganito... Madaming binabanggit to rationalize the "pang-iiwan." Mas masakit pa lalo e dun sa mga nakarinig pa ng panunumbat, o 'di kanais nais na mga pananalita tulad ng paninisi - na ikaw kasi e atbp...

Nakakatawa lang kasi mag-iisip ka ng malalim if you did something wrong that caused the relationship to fall apart, iispin mo kung talaga bang naging totoo siya sayo sa umpisa pa lang, kung talagang ninahal ka niya o niloko ka lang niya talaga, na maaring isa ka sa collection niya ng mga babae na pwede niyang ipagyabang in the future... You will feel stupid if you recalled some manifestations na ayaw na niya and this degrades your morale even more and you will view yourself as stupid because you felt betrayed and cheated and will think of "bakit hindi ko napansin yun? (signs)" Maybe because you felt happy, in cloud 9 that cuases tendency to be vigilant and alert... And then, lalo mo pang mafe-feel na ang tanga mo, na bakit ka nagpaka-tanga atbp. At lalo lamang lumuludmok sa putikan ang damdamin mo na parang kakainin ka na ng buhay. OUCH!

Mas maganda pa ang dead end signs because it speaks for itself na hanggang dito na lang... Masakit sa una dahil prangka, straignht to the point pero at least hindi ka nagmukhang tanga...
At least hindi naubos ang hope mo and pagmamahal sa sarili.

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"I like DEAD END signs...
I think they're kind...
They at least have the decency
to let you know you're going nowhere..."
- BUGS BUNNY
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backstage barahan at kung anu anu pa

grabe! ang gaganda ng mga posts nyo! i feel so hollow tuloy. hehehe..

nung debate..ang ganda2 ng pwesto nmen..nasa harapan kami ng mga no-retakers..of course may mga majojonda na at mga bata naman..as in bata talaga! parang bata magsipag-isip at makipag-away.

this is a conversation that occurred between a “professor” at yung bading na makulit na staff ng debate.. wla lang share ko lang.

prof: hindi talaga dapat magretake dahil hindi naman kami nandaya! huwag nila kami idamay! yang mga taga-ust na yan! porke di pumasa ang cum laude nila gnyan na sila! cge nga ikaw, (referring to bding na staff) anu gusto mo, retake o no retake?
staff: para sakin, dapat magretake nalang para masettle na yung issue, at least tpos na di ba?
p: hindi e, sana yung mga bagsak yung nagsisipag-reklamo e. pero yung mga tanga nay an, yung mga tangang nakapasa na yan e.
s:ay hindi mam, kasi tingnan mo, kung talagang pasado ka, at honest ka, bakit ka ndi papayag sa retake? if you really deserved it, walang dahilan para matakot magretake. kaya para sa kin dpat magretake na lang.
p: ay hindi, kasi.. (silence)

(bwahahahaha!)

p: tingnan mo, tingnan mo yung lawyer nung mga retake na yan, di alam gagawin, kung anu2 mga dalang papel na mga kodigo.. (tinawag pa yung bading tpos inulit yung cnabi)
s: eh yung sa inyo din naman po mdaming dala e namimigay pa nga kayo ng papel kanina di ba?

(whapaaaaaaaak!)

anyway.. i read this shoutout sa friendster isang araw..
“no retake! i will stand up for my profession!--”
—uhm..ahh.. kasi..alm nyo ang tatapang nilang lahat to blurt out their minds..tma naman dahil nasa democratic country tayo and we’re entitled to our own opinion. pero opinions might not be right all the time (teka parang wla akong pinatutunguhan no?) ah basta..ang masasabi ko lang e there’s no profession to stand up for kung mismong ung mga taong nagtatalaga sa pagiging propesyunal ang nangunguna sa pagwawalang bhala sa kabulukan ng sistema dito sa pilipinas.

sa lahat ng tao..pinakamhirap gisingin ang nagtutulog-tulugan,
makakita ang nagbubulag-bulagan,
at makarinig ang nagbibingi-bingihan.

bed potato

Hay... The weather is very weird... It would rained hard in the morning meaning causing floods then, it would be hot in the afternoon...

Because yesterday I'm sick, I just slept the whole day and afternoon... Grabe... Ang sarap plang matulog the whole day... a good slimming regimen...

Going back to the weirdness of the weather, It rained hard again last evening. And it seems that it would be raining tonight. Just like the weather, some people are just weird in the manner they act. Funny isn't it? Even though they know that what they're doing is wrong, even though they are informed by people that they're wrong, they still kept on doing it. Dense? Maybe. Acting stupid and deaf? Maybe they're doing this just for the sake of satisfying self comfort... Weird...

At least I'm not stupid, deaf nor dense, just a bed potato (counterpart of couch potato) Haha

growin' up???

naks nman... nag-iisip na tyo about growin' up o pagiging grown up ntin... hehehe...

musta pala sa inyo??? hi! tagal din bago my nagblog uli... hehehe

buti p kayo.... onti lng iniisip nyo.. hehehe...

hirap pala ng my responsibility no.... as in grabe...

gusto ko na magresign dito sa call center pero ayaw ni mama ksi daw para pang allowance ko daw kasi wala na kmi pera... hehehe

ganyan talaga buhay.. alam na natin ung mga sinasabi nila na wag magmadali maging bata at mahirap maging adult.. as in responsible adult... pero to feel is to believe tlaga no... hehehe

tapos pag minamalas kp sa buhay... dagdag bigat pa ng mga problema.. hehehe

ika nga ni leann... shit happens... hehehe

shit really happens...

Laro na lng tayo ng Chinese Garter at 10-20!

Yap, celebrity na! hahaha! This issue became a key to have appearances sa TV, 4x na hehe, sa GMA 24 hours/saksi and DEBATE with mare at pare, at ABS - ANC prime news with ces drilon and Y SPEAK.

Yap sana nga your here e para additional 96 lbs force tayo... Hirap din mag-gather ng mga batchmates na for the cause of the college tapos minsan tatanungin ka pa ng mga ANTIRETAKE kung napipilitan lang ba daw kaming makisama sa pinag-gagawa ng college... Hay


>>>i agree sa mga points ni anna at ekai...

life is simplier when we are still kids the things usually pre-occupies our mind are that what are you gonna eat, wear, sometimes how to please the oldies by doing stuff buy toys, clothes and new school stuff like bags, pencil cases, crayons, watching anime, cartoons like Cedie, Princess Sarah, Julio at Julia etc. Problems before are simple... Ang buhay bata, away-bati sa friends. And the stuff are not that serious sa totoo lang. Basta, may Jolibee, Mcdo, Goldilocks cake lang, masaya na tayo. We are inclined to be honest kasi bad daw ang nagsisinungaling etc. May mga myths pang pinaniniwalaan before na pag type A blood, clean blood at type O - dirty blood; na we were delivered by heron etc.

Now that we are old, life became more complicated... Reality na kasi, its like when we are still young, we lived in an idealistic world that everything seems to be perfect at tama si anna that most of us wished to grow up na kasi we thought that being old enough, we could enjoy more privilages in life that we envy from our parents and sibling.

Reality na ngayon kasi every move, we have to pay the consequences.
Before, wala tayong problema sa pera, nagyon, malaking problema kung saan kukuha ng pera.
Before, when we broke something, we are just scolded or sasabihan, pero ngayon iba na.
Before, its easy to be honest, ngayon, ang hirap na (the elephant thing ekai's talking about) Alam nyo yung feeling that there is a clash between personal comfort and morality in terms of honestly... When you say the truth, you'll be condemend, but if you don't ang heavy ng burden... Hindi din masaya that the people around you tolerated dishonesty... Ang hirap...

A Thomasian Nurse batch 1993 said to me: "Before, my parents always says: Paka-bait ka para matuwa sayo ang mga tao. Study hard so that you could enter a good college, tapos I studied hard nga. Study harder so that you could have a good job. Work hard so that you'll be promoted." Pero sabi din nya na ngayon, parang hindi din cya masaya even though he achieve all of this kasi ang tanung nya sa sarili nya: "What's next?" HIndi daw katulad noong mga bata pa tayo... na simple ang buhay bata.

Sa totoo lang, minsan naiisip ko kung tama ba itong ginagawa ko kasi ang dami na nagiging affected... Its UST vs the world na nga dito e... pero sabi nga sakin ni Ma'am Llanes at Ekai, there will come a time na you'll have to choose: between the easy thing and the right thing.

its the clash between the idealistic and the realistic point of view...

Nakakatuwa kasi I had the chance to work with our professors at when working with them, I can see the child in them... Parang tayo, naglolokohan at nag-aasaran... Nag-iimpersonate pa nga ng mga fellow faculty nila etc e... Paranga tayo...

Grabe... na-mimiss ko na maging bata... Sana pala, mas in-enjoy ko lalu ang childhood ko. hehehe. Laro nalang tayo ng Chinese Garter at 10-20

oi, daan kayu sa blogsite ko: www.mumayisbacktolife.blogspot.com wala lang...

white hair, white lies

>>first of all, narealize ko na ang dami ko palang typo...

>>second, dahil nawiwili ako magpost dito.. kaya, eto pa.

(expounding on ekai's last thought)

ang hirap na nga ng stage natin ngayon, plus the controversies pa! It's hard enough na nga getting started on something totally new, and unknown to most of us. Nakakapressure, kse chong totoo na to!! Dito na nakasalalay future mo and those depending on you. Pagnagkamali ka: KULONG! Sana nga meron nlng malaking elepante sa gitna ng room..

dati nung bata ako, excited ako tumanda.. para i can do and buy whatever i want! pero ngayon, seems like those are the only perks you get for being 20 or older. noon, i'd rather not go to school; i get to nap in the afternoons (mas madami, mas matagal--mas maganda!); jolibee lang masaya na tayo (pwede ring mcdo--ung iba nga tarzan lang!); tapos you can be as honest as you'd like and people'll just laugh and say "Ang cute-cute mo talaga!" Eh ngayon? Absent yourself at your own risk, either maka-miss ka ng lecture, quiz, or even a day's pay; limited sleeping hours mo, pano pa kung night shift; tapos ang hirap na masatisfy ang happiness (minsan nga napapaisip pa ako kung ano ibig sabihin nun); tapos try mo maging honest, ewan ko lang ('nough said).

its funny how children are frequently asked 'what they want to be when they grow up', giving the infamous doctor, lawyer, teacher, etc. as answers when they do not really know what those do. I bet, with hearts like theirs, they wouldn't want to grow up at all if they'd know what lies ahead.

feeling ko, most people feel this way at this stage. some just denies it and becomes corrupted; some ignores it and feels powerless against the corrupt; while some uses it to make change/s. pero dahil kahit papaano aware tayo, sana hindi tayo madala ng basta basta. honestly, dko lam kung kaya ko... pero nako! kung nahihirapan na ko sa ganito pano pa kaya kung lumala pa to!

para akong ipis na nakatihaya, gustong makatayo... pero walang magawa

EKAI: nabasa ko ng buong buong ung article, ndi ko kse matanggap ung headline eh.. medyo lumuwag nga ung paghinga ko nun nabasa ko ung line na un (made me feel lucky and proud). Pero there's no assurance na hindi affected ung choice nila by that factor na 2006 graduate tayo. ang bigat kse nung headline! i'm just worried na baka dahil dito magsimula ng bumaba tingin ng mga tao--lalo na ung mga wala nman talgang alam sa mga nangyari (epal!). Sana nga nga hindi tayo ma-stereotype.

TINA: oi! astig sa y speak kayo?!?! hanep showbiz! haay.. nakakainggit nman kayo.. artista!hehe.. nakakainis, kse sa mga naririnig ko saka nababasa e napapa-wish nalang ako na sana may magawa nman ako. ang saya dyan, ang drama ng buhay! pero alangan nmang mag-rally ako mag-isa dito dba? haay.. its hard to have such strong urge to suppress.. pero no choice. gusto ko makigulo dyan! kung ngkataon 96lbs heavier na pwersa natin! basta batiin nyo nlng ako sa tv! haha

PARA SA LAHAT: nakakamiss kayo... ang tagal ko na dito la man lang akong bagong makausap! la din ako mabuhusan ng inis. sobrang unfair ng nangyayari dyan sa lhat. kung tutuusin lahat nman talo, lahat nawalan ng something. haay.. dko akalaing magiging affected ako ng ganto sa course na hindi ko akalaing babagsakan ko. oh well . nandito na to eh.. kahit anong gawin ko ndi ko na mababago na sa kasalukuyan(tama ba to?? nakakabulol e), o sa hinaharap ay naging NARS ako, di ba?? Saka sa mga parusa (para sa mga kasalanan ko) na nalampasan ko sa loob ng apat na taon na yon sa college natin, sa totoo lang i wouldn't learn to respect this profession if not for those people who actually do. and it somehow hurts me to see them face a something as terrible as this knowing that i am helpless and, reluctantly, indifferent.

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hay i missed u guys

ana:
musta na jane? hay grabe but we can't blame them kasi they really have to know the truth. E kasi kung sana nung una pa alng e ginawan na nila ng magandang paraan, hindi na aabot sa ganito. Nakuha kasi ni mam llanes ang evidence 3 days after boards and submitted it to the PRC and BON but late na sila gumalaw kaya they created a big mess...

florie:
oki na hindi mo ako nakita kasi i looked stupid hehe, bulol at chubby... totoo pala yung statement na tumataba ka sa TV hehe... sa Y SPEAK, nandun kami this sunday... :P cguro i'm just very vocal kaya ganito ako :p kelan tayo punta 168? tara naghahanap ako ng kasama

rj:
hindi ka na nagpaparamdam, d bale kasama ka naman sa Y SPEAK e :P

ekai:
wha! next time dapat may subtitle na! hahaha

leann:
oi! bat d ka umatend ng review?

miss ko na kayo! nakakainis at d pa matapos ito...

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mga walang mgawa, basahin nyo ung pinost ko sa allstars.. nakaka-kaba para sa mga ngbabalak mgtrabaho dito ngyon.. kse hindi maiiwasang maging sobrang choosy at judgmental ng mga recruiters(?) dahil sa article na un.. nakakainis kung bakit pa nila kelngan sabihin un kase tayo ung apektado, pero kung tutuusin dapat nilang malaman un.. ang malas naman ntin sa batch pa natin natapat to.. haay.. pero kung wala nman kyo balak mangibang bansa edi...never mind.